Sunday 11-29-09

Blog 152

You know that today is the only 11/29/09 that there will ever be?

Its odd to think about it but it is. No matter what the future brings there will NEVER be another day like this day.

Not that anything interesting happened today.

Its just the only day of its kind.

Sometimes I think too much. I wont have anything to do and then I will just start thinking.

The world was here before I was born but I wasn't in the world. The world will go on after I die.
What if I have no impact, and I am forgotten after I am gone? Does it really matter because I wont be here anyways. When I see God what will I do? Forever seems like such a long time. What would it be like to just stop existing? Who will be in heaven? Will I be sad about the good friends of mine that wont be there?

What if I would have gone to a different high school? Where would I be now? If I had went to granite bay like I wanted to would I have turned into someone else? I wouldn't have met Tom, so would I be with someone?

I don't like being alone for that long. I hate the thought that I wont have all my friends with me in heaven. I get so scared and sad that I shake and can't control my self. I really love everyone with all my heart.

Today was alright. Went to church and had nursery. I spent the first half holding baby Robin while she slowly fell asleep. She is cute : D
Then I came home, was mad at my family. Didn't eat and went to sleep while reading.

Texted Papa Fro about wanting to watch Samurai Champloo. I have wanted to watch this since I heard about it from a friend. He ended up saying that he can't tonight, but he will soon with me.

You know, for all the time that I have hung out with him, I've only ever really hung out with him once alone (I said twice and counted the river, but he said that wasn't hanging out and that it didn't count.) Him saying that really made me think about it. And he is right. There was that time that I went to his house the Thursday before Halloween and we watched that movie. Its not like I have been avoiding hanging out with him alone, it just hasn't happened. I don't really care much about it either, as long as I am not ignored. : D

Wow... tonight I am just in write what I am thinking mode. Maybe its the book that I am reading called 'Write Naked'
Its a good book. I wish every thing was a simple as it.

Well, I hope I feel ok tomorrow. Sleepy time should be soon.
Ninja Report:
I think that Papa won... yeah.