Pondering

Blog 5
Everything you do in life, no matter how small, can spread ripples that last forever.
Right now I am dealing with something that started years ago. Now I just want it to go away but I'm not sure if it will ever stop.

Sometimes I think, if I had never said anything to him, never been stupid, I would have never had to deal with any of this.

And then that really gets me thinking about things that I should have done.

The most recent thing being that I should have asked my uncle to give me a ride to work.
If only I had asked him like I was going to he would still be here.

I now also think about how much I want to be like him.
At his funereal I can't count how many people said that if it wasn't for him, they would be dead.

Last night I had a spor.
My mom died in a car crash.
My uncle was still alive.
I didn't know what to do.

That is about all that I can remember.

Sad, Today I think that I will be sad.